“I am reminding myself—when I write something it definitely helps me know who I am.”

Music

11.16.2018

Christa Williamson's 'Birth' EP Is A Dark & Dreamy Debut

Christa Williamson knows who she is, as an artist and as a woman—that much is clear. As an artist, she’s fresh on the scene (Birth is her first-ever EP), and as a woman, she’s still coming into her own (as we all are). With Birth, specifically, she’s created an expert display of the aforementioned familiarity, weaving in and out of her own experiences with effortless grace and nuance. It’s the music that has allowed Williamson to develop such a deep understanding of her internal and external worlds, and something she’s always seeking in order to continue the journey; in her own words, “The reason I am doing this is because it does bring me back to myself…I surprise myself all the time.” It’s a process, foundational to her creative practice, and one she’s constantly improving upon. With that in mind, we sat down with Williamson to hear more about the inner workings of Birth, and what she wants from her listeners in return.

Can you talk about the making of the EP?

I started writing a few songs last year—“False Hope”, is the second song on the EP—I wrote that last year and produced it myself. I wrote “Rebel Child” last year as well. I started the production on those two and then they got reworked in the studio this year. I wrote “Messumade” and “Full Circle” in the winter of 2018—like January, February. It all kinda came together. I had two producers I worked with and I had a few more that I wrote, but I like the storyline of these four songs and how they all fit together. So I decided to just put out these four.

Speaking about the storyline, what do you think ties it together thematically? Is it a breakup album?

So “Messumade” being number one, I wanted to pull people in—hard hitting, cool drums, very dramatic. It is the most fun and electronic song on the EP and I thought that was a good starter. That was inspired by a situation with a guy, as usual. He kind of made a mess out of the whole situation and I was left feeling like I didn’t say everything I wanted to say. The ending line of the song says, “You bite your tongue, so do I and we do this dance again,” so it is just a repeat of the same damn thing; like where you are both holding back and you both made a mess and so here we are. And then “False Hope” is the second one where I am in a different mindset—it’s more heartfelt and I am being honest about how I feel after the mess has been made. Now the mess had been made and I am here wishing he could see how great we would be. Then number three is “Rebel Child”: it’s kind of like reminding myself that it is okay to be different and have a darker side. The fourth song, “Full Circle”, kind of about my relationship with God and becoming all the things I knew I would be and just kind of stepping into who I am. The chorus says “I don’t know how to feel,” and that is kind of how I felt earlier this year. I don’t know how to feel, tell me all the things I know I already know, like I already know but I don’t know how to feel about it. It’s just about God, like I am here, do what you will. I have come full circle. It’s a lot but I feel like cinematically they made sense and it just fits—it is dark and dreamy. It is cinematically. I see clear visuals when I listen to the songs.

So when you wrote all these and put them together, do you feel like you get to know yourself better over that process? What was that experience like?

Totally. The reason I am doing this is because it does bring me back to myself. When I start to write, sometimes I don’t even know what I am writing about. I just come up with the melody and the words just come. It is just things that I am feeling but don’t know how to put into words. I have never really been at expressing myself through words, so music is the one way that I can fully express how I feel and it is the only time I can be 100 percent honest and free. I feel like when I wrote these I needed it, it was almost like therapy—I needed to figure out what I was going through. I feel like you’re proclaiming things over your life. It is okay to be a little rebellious. Sometimes I listen back and it’s a little reminder. I am reminding myself—when I write something it definitely helps me know who I am.

Do you ever surprise yourself by what you write?

Oh yea, the process is crazy—sometimes it is like, “Woah! So that is what I am going through.” I surprise myself all the time.

What do you want to evoke in people? How do you expect them to react to the EP? What do you want them to know about you?

I want them to be able to relate. I mean we have all been in similar situations, we just don’t talk about it. So many people have had a situation where they know the person is holding back and they weren’t honest. I think it is just a full story from beginning to end. I want people to feel like there is hope after listening to the album because that  is how I feel—I am hopeful for my future I want people to recognize me a well rounded artist. I had my hands deep in this—a lot of artist aren’t like that—they will just have things handed to them. I am someone who I put so much detail and attention and my whole heart into this—that is what I hope people recognize. Also it is up for interpretation—it is very emotionally ambiguous. I don’t want people to feel happy or sad—I just want them to feel something.

Featured image courtesy of Christa Williamson

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